I need to tell you that Lizzy is right. Normal is indeed only a setting on a washing machine. There is NO normal in life. Today, for the first time in more than two weeks I feel that I can unplug, breathe deeply and just chill. My son was visited by the surgeon this morning (even though the surgeon is supposed to be off this weekend) and he is happy with Wynand's condition. He would most likely be discharged again on Monday after they have removed his sutures.
On Tuesday evening when we drove home from visiting Wynand in hospital we anticipated that he would be discharged on Wednesday morning and that it would be our last late night returning from the hospital. On Wednesday I pampered myself to a lovely hair appointment...knowing that Wynand was on his way home and that we would see him later the afternoon. When we visited him, we noticed that his breathing was laboured and he was in pain and uncomfortable. On Thursday morning when we woke we found that Nadia had sent us a message that Wynand's condition had deteriorated to such an extent that she was taking him to the hospital's Emergency Ward. X-Rays confirmed that he had a lot of fluid in his lungs and at that stage his pain levels were totally out of control. The surgeon was worried and started injections diuretics as well as blood thinning medication to prevent blood clots. On Thursday night his pain escalated and the nursing staff did a poor job at managing it. No need to tell you that they were severely scolded and given a lengthy sermon on pain management by a very angry surgeon yesterday. My son was sent for a CT scan and the scan was clear of blood clots but still showed fluid in his lungs and around his esophagus.
I can't explain to you how I feel. On the one hand I have absolute faith in the Lord and I know that He has promised Wynand total restoration...but on the other hand there is nothing worse for a mother than watching her child suffer. I would gladly suffer on his behalf if only I could. I cannot even remember how many people told me to "just breathe". I can however tell you that your child will always be your baby...no matter what their ages. You will always worry about them!
In my last post I told you that I am "special investigator"on CSI Color Story Inspiration for the month of March. Last Saturday I took out my detective kit and managed to solve case file #194. Scrapbooking is still the very best therapy for stress.
Here is my layout:
Supply list: Patterned papers: My Minds Eye; Cardstock: American Craft; Letter Stickers: Pink Paislee; Chipboard: Blue Fern Studio; Flair: Adri du Preez (bicycle) and My Minds Eye (this day); Buttons: Crate Paper; Enamel Dots; My Minds Eye; Die cuts: Wilna Furstenberg; Twine: Unknown; Ink: Distress Ink in pumice stone; Embossing Paste: Studio 490; Stencil: Crafters Workshop. Embossing Powder: Lindy's Stamp Gang.
The case file:
The Scheme: I used all 5 colours.
Evidence: Stipes, Stars, String, Something loopy (the border chipboard), toys (flair); diamond shape.
Testimony: I used the title PLAY. My journaling ïs about a favourite toy: "Stefan, this will probably always be the ost favourite toy of all time. We can take you anywhere, as long as we load your motorbike. This will most probably be the only toy that will outlast your childhood."
Some close ups:
I love that the My Minds Eye Market Street Collection was such a good match for the Scheme of the case file.
I had a large number of cut files from Wilna Furtenberg's IHeart Sudio...I cut them up and layered them under my lollipop flowers.
I used a diamond shape stencil behind this cluster and then used Distress Ink in Pumice Stone as a watercolour over the embossing paste.
I added the little bicycle flair and lots of enamel dots. (love those)
The "something loopy" to use was this Blue Fern Studio border that I embossed with slate grey powder.
My "new" favourite way of documenting the story is with this cute typewriter font in journaling strips.
Thank you for visiting my blog...I hope you are having a restful weekend.