“Such is my relationship with God: on my gigantic canvas of life, I am the one throwing all of the brightly-colored paints, creating genuine splatters, authentic whirlpools of color, beautiful patterns, wonderful streaks and stains and wild accents; God is the one with the paintbrush who stands beside my canvas filling all the intricate and amazing details in between the whirlpools and the streaks! We're happy together!” ― C. JoyBell C.
Yesterday morning I woke to the news that a dear cyber friend had just lost her husband and best friend...he was only 44 years old. I just cannot stop thinking of them and my heart aches for her and her 4 year old daughter. At times like these I am brought to a standstill to reflect of life and the joy and pain it brings. I have no idea how one deals with this sort of loss and I cannot imagine losing my darling husband who is also my soul mate.
Some time ago I wanted to write a blog about "what defines me" and it has been sitting in drafts all this time. The right words just did not come. Reflecting on my life up to now and the joys and the pains it brought made me realise that One defines who I am...and that is my relationship with the Lord. Over the course of my life until now we have had much joy and peace. We also had a lot of hardship and storms that nearly destroyed us. We have had to make hard choices regarding the calling on our lives and our Ministry that caused us to loose many of our friends and some of our family.
We have learned that there is no one to turn to but the Lord. We have experienced Him holding all things together when it felt as if our lives were falling apart. We have felt His love and compassion when our children were all affected in one way or another. We have learned that without Him we could never make it. We never choose the storms but we are forever changed when it is over. He will always be the One I will run to in time of trouble, fear and doubt and I have faith that He will carry me through it every time. I am on His easel and He is creating the painting of my life...when things are hard that is where I must stay and He will make something beautiful of the pain.
My prayer is that He will carry Lisa Marie and her little Bluebird through this and that they will know His comfort and love.