January was all about being honest with yourself, with others and ultimately with God. This quote by Margaret Young was part of the prompt of the month: "Often people attempt to live their life backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want." So the question is...who are you really.
...but there is more to that. What about the bits of me that I am not proud of for example: I am a people pleaser, I want to FIX everything and everyone. What about the bits of me that my pride will not let me reveal. The things I struggle with, the things I don't want to accept, the things that I am ashamed of. Well I had to look at those too...and some of that I had to lay down...and others I am struggling with.
I love this quote by Tad Williams: "We tell lies when we are afraid. Afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing that we fear grows stronger. The doodle above was our January doodle that I covered and added to my journal.
Here I actually verbalized my feelings about 2012. "This year I want to EMBRACE life in all it's aspects. I want to LOVE more, LIVE more, ENJOY the process of life. I want to GROW in my knowledge and relationship with the LORD. I want to grow in GRACE. I will no longer be in the middle. I will learn to say NO. I will be a GOD PLEASER not a people pleaser."
Every year we start the year with a few goals...like losing weight, exercising more and eating better. I made this page with a bit of doodling and a good quote.
On the back of this page I decided to keep a record of my exercising progress for the year.
With the wonderful tool of having Daily mile, where you can record your walking, running and exercising it is great to be able to look back on the past two years. In 2010 I logged 922km and in 2011 I logged 1320km...that is a LOT of walking. I will continue to record my progress on this page.
When my father passed away in January I made this mixed media project and journalled over the page.
On the back of the page I added photographs taken while in Kidds Beach for my dad's memorial service.
February is the next step in the process: Surrendering your heart.
Here is my title page.
A doodle by Stephanie Ackerman that I added to my journal.
Stephanie included some of her art for us to use in our journals. I wanted to try my hand at it and made my own mixed media heart. I painted and shaded the background...added some wordy rub ons to the painted background and then cut a heart out of red Basic Grey paper and mod podged it to the backgound. I then painted around the edges of the heart.
Another doodle by Stephanie that I added to the journal.
I am totally smitten with the whole messy process of a mixed media project...and made this one with the hearts to add to my journal. This week we had to journal our hearts about surrendering. Here is my two pages.
This is my personal journey.
Thank you for reading my ramblings.