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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Looking Back...

Tick, tock, tick, tock.
2011 is nearly over.
Tomorrow is the start of a brand new year!
Starting over...starting new.

On this last day of 2011 I want to look back on the last two years...and what it has brought.  These past two years have been difficult but still not without joy.  I know that we have grown through the process.  There has been good times, bad times, sad times and times of indescribable joy.

In the past two years we have seen our oldest son get divorced and we were all devastated...but all our feelings turned into joy when there was reconciliation and this month the two of them remarried.  I can see how much both of them have grown and matured through this whole process.  I witnessed this new love and respect for each other.  The joy of the little ones having their parents back together.

We have seen our second son lose his eye sight and lived through the trauma of having a sword over his head...a condition that is inoperable....and then we watched in amazement as the Lord restored his sight.  Our hope is in Him alone.

Our daughter ran away from home and again our lives shattered.  Eighteen months later she returned and I truly have my daughter back. Gone is the rebellion, darkness and hatred.  In the past months she has gone for counselling and I see how the light has come in her life...and again I am reminded that the Lord hears the prayers of parents for their children.

My life has come full circle. My family is whole again.  I am ready for this new year and I am excited about what it holds for us as a family. 

xx

Friday, December 30, 2011

Sketch Support December sketches

With everything that was going on around here I have never updated on the Sketch Support projects that I made this year so here goes:
Two-page Sketch #23

You can download and print this sketch by clicking on the two-page sketches link found under the "printable sketches" tab on the right sidebar of the Sketch Support blog.

Here is my take on it:
"Christmas Memories" by Lynette Jacobs
Supply list Background: Embossed Bazzill; Printed papers: Fancy Pants (Traditions);Stars: Fabscraps; Glitter: Melissa Francis; Title: Enmarc; Brad: Making Memories;Leaves: Making Memories; Flower: Maya Road; Punch: Martha Stewart.

Variation #1: I punched the scallop and the narrow strips.

Variation #2: I doodled on my Christmas trees.

Variation #3: I moved the title to the bottom of the Christmas Trees.
Variation #4: Added leaves and a flower to the right side page.

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Add-on Sketch #12

You can download and print this sketch by clicking on the add-on sketches link found under the "printable sketches" tab on the right sidebar.

Here is what I did with the sketch:
"Christmas Tree" by Lynette Jacobs
Supply list - Base: Florist oasis cone; Printed papers: Fancy Pants Traditions; Other:Pins, glitter and bazzill card stock.

Variation #1: I decided to make a Christmas tree and used the same size strips as on the sketch.

Variation #2: I curled the ends of the strips and pinned it onto the Oasis cone starting from the bottom up.

Variation #3: I made a little cone to cover the pins on the top of the tree.
Variation #4: I used a star die cut to cut two stars that I glittered and stuck together back to back after sticking it to a long pin. I then pinned the star to the top of the tree.

Go and check out the beautiful sketches and what the Design Team created on Sketch Support.

xx

Friday, December 23, 2011

Christmas wishes


I have been pretty bad at blogging and even worse at reading those I am following.  I must confess that although it was my choice to BREATHE and enjoy the process of life this year, the wheels just seem to come off towards the end. When everyone started celebrating, going on holiday and generally just having good cheer...all I wanted to do was sit in a corner with a sadness I could just not shake off.  I guess all the emotions about my father, Wynand and Nadia finally moving to their own home, trying to keep a family together (Eish...that must be the hardest thing ever...I  always find myself in the middle playing the peacemaker), hard work at the Mission and the constant headaches finally got to me.  I still haven't managed to shake the "meh" feeling.

Anyhow....

I wish each and every one of you a blessed Christmas spent with those you love...and let us all celebrate the Great Gift we received more than 2000 years ago.

xx

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Still HERE;-)

Ansie (my little sister;-) and I at the Beach restaurant.

I got back from my parents in Kidd's Beach a week ago and I haven't had a moment to slow down or catch my breath.  We are into our busiest time of the year at the Mission.  I am also struggling with the emotional turmoil in our lives at present.  I apologize for not getting to your blogs, but I seriously don't have the time at the moment, so please forgive me. 

The last two days in East London was not easy.  On Monday early my mom was dressed to the nines and ready to leave to visit my dad in hospital. She then got a call from my dad to say that he is being moved to oncology.  They were hoping against hope and my mom was so devastated that I watched her age before my eyes.  Suddenly the clothes she was wearing was too tight and when I caught up with her in their bedroom, she had gotten rid of it.  It is awful and at the same time comforting that Ansie and I were there at the time.  By the afternoon my mom phoned to say that my dad is being discharged.  The specialist had told them that there is nothing more they can do and treatment will only make him sicker.  

We took him home and I cannot explain to you the joy on his face when we stopped in front of their home in Kidd's Beach.  He was so happy to finally get home.  My prayer for them is that my mom will embrace the next months and that my dad will find peace.

A lot has been happening at the Mission in the past few weeks...and it will get even busier as we get closer and closer to Christmas.  Bianca has been keeping the Mission's blog and Facebook page up to date, so please go and see what we have been up to....and "like" our page please.  You will find us here:  blog:  http://vistarus.blogspot.com/   and Facebook page here: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Vistarus-Mission-Station/228171287243605?sk=wall


I saw the neurosurgeon last Friday for the results of the MRI scan.  There is a problem with the C7 disc in my neck which explains my headaches and shoulder pains.  I need to go for an EMG (Electromyogram) before anything can be done.  The neurologist that does this test can only see me on 24 January next year.  Until then I will be sleeping with one of these delightfully fashionable neck braces;-)






I have left getting my neck brace until yesterday.  For some reason I was just not looking forward to wearing it.  Last night was my first night sleeping with it....and this morning I found it.....sitting in a corner of my bedroom where I threw it during the course of the night.








I have been selected to be part of the Sketch Support team for the next year term starting in January and I am very excited about it.  I love working with Allison Davis sketches and the whole team are an inspiration.

I have also entered for this course by Stephanie Ackerman that will be running for the entire year.  I would love to be able to doodle like she does.  
In the first six months this is what we will be covering:
January - Being Honest with Yourself        
February - Surrendering Your Heart
March - Owning your Talent    
April - Random Acts of Art
May - Life IS Beautiful
June - Surrounding Yourself with Friends   
I am excited...I feel that in this coming year I want to really EMBRACE LIFE in all it's aspects.

Wynand, Nadia and the boys have moved to their house and my home is now eerily quiet.  Most of their furniture hasn't moved yet because they are still in the process of completing their flooring and cupboards.

We have already completed white washing the knotty pine ceilings in our home and every evening we paint walls and re-arrange furniture and paintings.  The deadline for completing all the dirty work is Wednesday next week when we get the Carpet cleaners in to clean up. I will show you the before and after pics as soon as it is all done.

Until then.

xx

Thursday, December 1, 2011

The Recipe for Hate and the Antidote

This will always be the blog I run to when I need to share something so close to my heart.  Those things that I can't trust everybody with.  During our time with my parents in Kidd's Beach, my sister showed me this poem she wrote some time ago.  I just wept when I read it and so many memories came flooding back.

Unwanted, unloved, wretched, little boy
Doomed to a life robbed of childhood joy
Deprived of your mother's care and her love
An unappreciated blessing from above

Surviving all attempts to miscarry
Alone in your loveless life you will tarry
Replacing the kiss from your mother's lips
You were lavished with lashes from her whips

That is why you learnt how to hate
The worst disease of the human state
Without the unconditional love of a mother
You never learnt how to love any other

As a man your hatred grew to maturity
Distrusting all love and doubting its purity
With a heart bursting with hatred and pain
The erupting anger left an indelible stain

I'm sad that I never sat on your lap
Afraid that something might cause you to snap
I always knew when to run off and hide
By the way your car pulled up in the driveway outside

Out from under the bed I would peep
Dead still and quiet as a mouse I would keep
I sometimes wondered what you were thinking
But now I know... it's what you've been drinking

In your blind rage... I wonder what you saw...
Did you see little children cowering on the floor?
As you took off your belt and inflicted your pain
I thought to myself you must be insane

You're an old man now, with a broken heart
It's never too late for a brand new start
All things happen to us for a reason
It's time for you to start a brand new season

I'll shower you with love without expectation
Together we'll find healing for the next generation
When one day your life has run it's full course
I hope you'll find peace at Love's true source

The years have passed and I'm grown up now
Throughout my life I've kept my vow
A product of circumstance I'll not be
The future is bright and it's all up to me

Seeing my dad...so weak and frail with only a maximum of six months to live just breaks my heart. I see so clearly a man that has never known how to give or receive love.   I know that I love him unconditionally...that there is no bitterness in my heart.  We can only shower him with our love and trust the Lord to touch His heart.

xx