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Sunday, November 27, 2011

The sound of silence

 “Silence is pure and holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking.” 
― Nicholas SparksThe Notebook

One thing I know.
I love silence.
I am totally comfortable with it.
I cannot function without it.
I need it like I need oxygen and food.
Without it I cannot recharge and refresh.

Another thing I know.
Some people cannot handle silence.
They need to fill it with incessant chatter.
I sometimes wish that these people came with a "mute" button.
My ears become tired of listening.

We (my sister and I)  share a room in Kidd's Beach. In the crazy rush to and from hospital in these past few days, I have come to cherish the quiet moments...the time I need to just relax and become silent.  The little picture above could have been a picture of us.  We can spend all day together, quietly doing our own thing.  I realise how important it is to just be...no talk needed.

How do you feel about silence?

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Kidd's Beach - East Londen

I collected my sister Ansie from the airport on Thursday and we left for East London directly. We were both shocked to see how thin our dad's has become.  He is just skin and bone...and his colouring is yellow.  According to the CT scan the tumour in his lung is 8cm in diameter. We stayed with him until 8 the evening and then ran to the car in the pouring rain. We decided to have supper at Grazia on the beach front of East Londen before we return to Kidd's Beach.
We woke to a beautiful day on Friday morning and decided to go for a walk on the beach before we return to the hospital.  
A little bit of heaven on this earth.
Mom and Me.
Unspoiled beaches.
Ansie and Mom

We then left for the hospital and was just in time to greet my dad before he was wheeled into the theater for a biopsy of the mass in his lung.  When he came out of theater he was in so much pain and he struggled to breathe.  There is nothing as emotionally draining than seeing somebody you love struggling to breathe and grow more and more anxious.  He sat upright and Ansie massaged his neck and shoulders. We called the sister and she gave him a cortisone injection.  He is a stubborn man and insisted that he didn't feel better although the machine that measures the oxygen in his system showed it within acceptable range. He also refused sleeping tablets saying that he can't sit up and sleep. Eventually Ansie coaxed him into taking a sleeping tablet after she told him it was just something to relax him. We eventually left the hospital after he fell asleep at 8:30.  We drove back to Kidd's Beach and just collapsed into bed.

I hope that he is feeling a better today.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Healing feelings:-)


Thank you for all your support and love following my previous post.  I appreciate all your love and prayers. 

I have become a big fan of the gorgeous doodles by Stephanie Ackerman and I am seriously considering enrolling for her online course "Doodling 101".  Today I have to write a letter to loved ones about my feelings and it is going to be hard, but I am at a point in my life where I know I HAVE to do it...leaving it will make the feelings turn into resentment and that is not where I want to be.

Tomorrow morning at 8 I am scheduled for a MRI of my neck.  My sister Ansie is flying in from Cape Town just before 1 o'clock, I will then pick her up from the airport and we will be driving down to Kidds Beach near East London to be with our parents.

I need to share the sketch and layout for Sketch Support this week.  Here is the sketch:

One-page Sketch #15


You can download and print this sketch by clicking on the one-page sketches link found under the "printable sketches" tab on the right sidebar of the Sketch Support blog.
Supplies used:  Cardstock: Bazzill; Printed papers: My Minds Eye (Lost and Found); Punches:  Martha Stewart; Rubon: Kaisercraft; Alphabet: Quickutz Blossom; Other:  DMC Cotton.

Variation #1: I followed the directions on the sketch but replaced the stripe paper with glittered blocks.
Variation #2:  I punched the strip below the stripe strip and attached it with a row of hand stitching.
Variation #3:  I replaced the leaves with falling hearts and added a second layer that pops up.

Chat again soon.
xx

Monday, November 21, 2011

Life is too short...


My dad was admitted to hospital on Friday for tests.  He has lost so much weight.  After a lung biopsy my mom was told this morning that he has lung cancer.  More tests will be done before we know the way forward.  I feel such sadness.  He was never really part of my life when I was growing up...and now time seem to be running out.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Thank goodness it is Friday.

After a busy week I am thankful that it is Friday and I have two days to relax and recharge my batteries.  I had my appointment with the neurosurgeon this week and have been scheduled for a MRI of my neck next Thursday.  I will then be seeing the doctor again on 2 December.  Until then I have been told to sleep with a soft neck brace...will still have to see how that one pans out.

Anyhow...onto my project for Sketch Support this week.


Add-on Sketch #11
You can download and print this sketch by clicking on the add-on sketches link found under the "printable sketches" tab on the right sidebar of the Sketch Support blog.



I initially did not know what to do with this sketch....that was until I saw this bonus two page sketch by Allison Davis.
You can print this sketch from the "two-page sketches" page.
So after combining the two sketches this is what my project looked like.

Supplies used:  Cardstock: Bazzill; Printed Papers: Dream Street Papers (Sam); Felt flowers: Scrapbooking Collection; Leaves: Prima; Tag: Basic Grey Basics; Brads: Art from the Heart; Rub ons: Kaisercraft; Alphabet: American Craft; Punch: Martha Stewart. 

Variation #1:  I used the leaf in two sizes.
Variation #2:  I cut the template in two and then traced the two sides on stripe paper.
Variation #3:  I used a black marker to do faux stitching along the lines of the paper.
I am still a wee bit uncomfortable with too much white space so I added the banner with my Sew Easy tool and then cut little triangles to go inside the stitching...I finished it off with brads between the banners.

Hope you are all having a fantastic weekend.

xx

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Proudly South African

I want to share with you a debate that was taking place on my sister, Herlien's facebook page yesterday.  I was watching this unfold with amusement and amazement... but please read this for yourself and then we will chat.



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Congratulations South Africa. Congratulations Cape Town. TABLE MOUNTAIN has officialy been named as one of the new "7 WONDERS OF THE WORLD." This is a momentous occassion for all South Africans as the revenues from tourism are expected to add jobs and more oppurtunity for all as tourism is expected to boom in the Western Cape. We cannot wait to welcome the world to our shores. Peace & Love, SHOUT.
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Anita Treurnicht We regularly get travel advisory updates here in Oz that it's not safe to travel to South-Africa.Table Mountain is special,but not safe to visit:-(
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Herlien Rheeder I think any place can be unsafe - I would go up Table Mountain tomorrow. Bad things happen every where so caution always important, but - don't think it's any more, travelling to South Africa than any where else.
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Anita Treurnicht Have to agree to disagree on this one.The stats on crime in SA tells the whole story.Have you travelled much?
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Herlien Rheeder Still a beautiful country with much to offer :-)
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Clark DeNoble Crime statistics always look worse from outside the neighborhood, city, state or country yet people are thriving in those areas. If someone is ignorant enough to wander into trouble then nowhere is safe.
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Herlien Rheeder Well said Clark. That's exactly what I was trying to say. I love this country - because of the good and in spite of the bad.
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Anita Treurnicht You can not compare safety in SA with Aus or Europe.If you have not been anywhere but SA you will not know any different.You simply believe what you want to.I will go anywhere in the dark hours of the night here and feel safe.Not where you are.
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I guess if you like going around any where you like in the dark hours of the night it's better that you left ;-). And no - I'm not ignorant to crime in South Africa compared to other countries - I simply choose to focus on the positive, be ...cautious and stay safe and enjoy all this country has to offer. Compared to how many people visit our beautiful mountain every day, the incidents of crime reported on our mountain are relatively few. I am proud to say that my little sis Elsa will be visiting us from Australia in January. And yes - we are planning to go up Table Mountain.See More
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Anita Treurnicht Enjoy the visit and Africa.Yes, I'm glad I've left so that We can enjoy a better quality of life,but if you have to stay there , you've got the right attitudex
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Herlien Rheeder I don't have to stay here.... I choose to stay here. The same as many people who could leave if they so chose, but would rather stay. You would be surprised at how many people choose to stay - precisely because they couldn't enjoy the same quality of life any where else. So once again - let's agree to disagree and leave it at that ;-).
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Anita Treurnicht
You are absolutely right Herlien.You also need a lot if guts,drive and money to start over in a new country . That is the hard choice. We love to travel and broaden our " horizons " and it's so nice to do if you earn dollars in stead of rand. I do admire your positive attitude, way to go in SA.
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Clark DeNoble Where is Oz?
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Herlien Rheeder The place you go to ask the wizard for brains, a heart and courage ;-)
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Ansie Els My family are in a position to live anywhere and we've travelled extensively. SA is still the best.
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Ansie Els I guess South Africa's not for sissies... lol
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Clark DeNoble Smartass! Seriously what was Anita talking about "Oz"
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Herlien Rheeder Australia dear Clark ;-)
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Clark DeNoble My niece and her Aussie husband live there and they've never used that term. Thanks
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Herlien Rheeder I don't think it's a commonly used term. My aunt has lived there since the age of 16 and I've never heard her or my cousins use that term either. Neither my sister and her family who'vlived there for the past 15 years. My aunt still comes back to visit once every two years.
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Anita Treurnicht Ai,so baie Suid-Afrikaners het hierdie kleinlikheid en verkrampte seining,soos volstruise met jul koppe in die sand.Ansie as jy dink SA is die beste is jy beslis met jou koppie in die sand,oningelig en in jou eie kleine wereldjie
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Anita Treurnicht You can still be in a position to live anywhere,but not have the courage to leave your comfort zone.Maybe it's a good thing you all don't know what you're missing,I feel sorry for you.I have also lived in the Isle of Man for a year,what a gorgeous place! you will probably not know where that is...To make such a issue out of the abbreviation Oz,that's so typical small minded South-African.Get a life.
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Clark DeNoble I don't know what Anita's problem is but she's your friend so I'll say nothing about her inferiority complex...
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Herlien Rheeder Not much of a friend - old friend from school who added me on facebook - don't know what her problem is. I respect her decision to leave - but she doesn't seem to be able to do the same. Gosh little Anita - you've turned really nasty. Not the way - remember you at all. Maybe the change wasn't so good for you after all??
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Herlien Rheeder Fortunately Clark - I don't have inferiority complex, so I find her comments amusing. I don't have to leave the country to prove anything to anybody. Or run away to 'Oz'. I already have a brain, heart and courage ;-)
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Ansie Els Sorry to insult your frien Herlien but that's why they say that when SA'ns run off to Australia and Nieu Zealand the average IQ of all three countries increase ;-D lol
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Andre Van Rooyen As well as the average RQ. (Racist quotient). The REAL reason why most people leave.
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I want to tell you how I feel.
I love this colourful country that we live in.  Where my faith is concerned I know that we have been called to be in this nation for exactly a time like this.  We need to make a difference and be the salt and the light in this country.  

Do I have my head in the sand.  NO!  I don't, I know exactly what is going on in our country politically and economically.  Even so, I believe that we have a great future ahead of us.  

Am I afraid?  No, I am not, the Lord has not given me a spirit of fear but of power and love and a sound mind.  

What about the future of my children and grandchildren?  I have seen my children become entrepreneurs in this country and today they don't only provide for their own families, they also created jobs so that others can earn a living and provide for their families.

Is it easy?  No, but then again, why should it be.  Our nation is a proud nation that lived through the Great Trek through this country when it was still wild, they lived through the Anglo Boer war and survived the concentration camps.  We are strong and we are proud.  This is our country and we belong here.

I hate it when people who have left this country, try to make us who choose to stay look like ignorant idiots.  Really, I respect the fact that they wanted to leave and they really don't have to give me their reasons for leaving.  Please, respect the fact that we have chosen to stay. I also don't ask for your negativity about my country...if you are negative, maybe it is a good thing that you left, we need people with positive attitudes if we have to make this country work.

LOL!  Then I want to thank my sisters, Herlien and Ansie for standing up for what they believe in, I am proud of you...and Herlien... I will always remember fondly that "Oz is the place you go to ask the wizard for brains, a heart and courage ;-)  I am thankful that we already have brains, a heart and courage and don't have to go to Oz to get it.

So...what do you say?

xx