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Friday, February 5, 2010

Frazzled

We saw the neurosurgeon this morning. The same doc that did my back surgery two years ago. He is a nice friendly man that inspires confidence and the eye specialist says that he is the best (possibly) in South Africa.  He looked at the MRI and CT scan results.  He explained in lay terms that this was indeed a congenital defect and took a  lot of care to make little drawings to explain what the AV fistula entails and all the possible reasons for Wynand's loss of vision.  The MRI and CT scan only shows the AV fistula and he needs to know more before he can decide on the best course of action.  Wynand will be taken up in hospital next week Thursday for an angiogram.  The angiogram should show whether it is the blood from the hemorrhage or the abnormal veins causing the pressure on his optic nerve. In the mean time he must refrain from things like smoking and getting too excited and he has to get enough rest.  So the waiting continues....

I must be totally honest and say that the stress of the past two weeks have left me totally exhausted.  I guess we all suffer from stress from time to time and we all react differently to it. In my case, the first thing that gets affected by stress is my sleeping patterns.  When I sleep as badly as I have the past week, fibromyalgia rears its ugly head.  Added to this, my stomach becomes a knot and just thinking of food makes me feel nauseous.  The past week has had it's highs and it's lows.  Times that my faith was way up high and I experienced a peace that surpasses all understanding  and times where it felt like my insides have turned to water.  Times that I stood solid on the Rock and times I was overcome. 

It has been a rough week and I would imagine that next week will be much of the same.

xx

22 comments:

  1. Hang in there Lynette, my son and I are continuing to lift you and your family up in prayer.

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  2. At least its positive and you have a nice sounding neurosurgeon. I hope you have a relaxing weekend & are restored to your normal cheerful self. Lifting you & your family up in prayer.

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  3. Oh my dear Lynette. I have been thinking of you so much.
    Keep strong my friend - lean on your faith and your loved ones for support.
    Will be praying for you x-x

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  4. I found this quote some time back and loved it...it seems apt in your circumstances...

    Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”

    Hugs to you my friend

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  5. Hang in there.
    It is always darkest just before the dawn.

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  6. I m sure the doctors know best.. their wisdom is from God.. take care of yourself, Lynette..

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  7. Hang in there Lynette! Keep on believing God, not just believing IN Him! He is good!

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  8. Thinking of you lots and lots. xoxo

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  9. Thinking of you.
    sorry for causing leaky seams but just wanted you to know that you touch people in ways you probably dont imagine:-)

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  10. I was reading this as you commented on mine!!!

    I so understand what you are talking about.
    The only difference is its my own life and not that of my child I am stressing about.
    Its hard...
    I suppose my mom feels like you are, so this entry got me to understand where she is in our situation...thanks for that and my prayers are with your son...

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  11. Prayer is very powerful tool...I will continue to pray for your son and your family. Stress can take a toll on your physical body. Dont forget to take care of yourself too.

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  12. Hang in there, I been praying for your son and you all. Hope you can get some rest.

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  13. The end is near Lynette, after next week you will know exactly where you are headed.

    Try and relax this weekend - get stuck into that fabulous hobby of yours and let go.

    Will continue to pray for you all.

    And be here for you. xxx

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  14. Lynette--it is such a blessing that you have the access to such medical care for Wynand. I will continue to keep him and your family in my thoughts and prayers. It's ok to struggle with stress. But remember to feel His arms around you helping you get through it. I know you will :)

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  15. Hugs to you...still very much in my prayers!!!

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  16. Loved thw quote, so encouraging!
    Keeping you and yours in my prayers!
    Betty xx
    (((Hugs)))

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  17. Hold fast, my dear brave friend.

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  18. Dearest Lynette,
    I have an award for you.
    Please kindly accept it.

    http://justmeshakira.wordpress.com/2010/02/07/sunshine-award-from-william/

    hugs
    shakira

    p.s I know you must be so exhausted. Please take care of yourself.You are all still in my prayers.

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  19. Oh my! I haven't had time for blogging for the past couple of weeks. I'm just horrified to read about what you're going through my friend! old on tight to your faith Lynette. It's all we have left when everything else crumbles around us. And don't be to hard on yourself when you feel like you're losing faith / hope at times. You're only human. Will keep Wynand and the rest of your family in my prayers. Take care of yourself first. You can't be there for anybody if you don't.

    Lots of hugs and angels coming your way right now! :)

    ^j^ ^j^ ^j^ ^j^ ^j^ ^j^ ^j^

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  20. Hang in there - you are all in my prayers. :)

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  21. Ooooh dear so sorry you have so much to think about right now! It never rains, it pours as they say. Things are bound to improve one of these days. Life at times is such a challenge but in between them all there are still times of joy ;-D

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